final_goodbye

i didnt like today. i still dont feel good. i got home nd my moms already yelled at me a good amount of times..(ive been homefor 30 minutes) nd yea

bio- we took another test today. i got like  70 on it i think. watever. i dont care. the student teacher taugt nd i had no clue wat was goin on. my very short attention span got the best of me again. i dont remember a single thing that happened. i kno somehting obut projects nd yea thats bout it. i hope we dont have homework cause i dont remekmber if we do or not.

english- i dont remember wat happened in this class either. i think we might of read something..i think..i dunno

spanish- we made little "skits"(sp) nd lawlor didnt even see if ours was ok.. so i did all that work for nothin. it got me a little annoyed.

band- we played the marchin basses. we ve been doin the same thing on them for the past 7 times we ve been in there. im so sick of it. i went to bud nd told him to give us something else to do. so now we re doin something a little different. nd since its usin a lot of left arm my left arm will get stronger.. which is a good thing.

i dunn- i think im gonna change my layout.. but last time it didnt work..i dunno

:: wen u have no light to guide u ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: gloomy

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: hanson

guess wat!? ohmygoodiness! yesterday i made a elephant stuffed animal!! 9 hand-sewed it nd everything!!! nd today i stuffed it nd sewed it back up nd put on the "final touches"!! it looks sooooooo cool! :-D well- at least i think it does. lol. i did absolutely nothin the rest of the day. i sat on my ass in front of the puter nd chatted it up w. dane. we decided we re goin ice skatin too! we just dunno wen. :-( oh well. we ll figure it out! im watchin remember the titans. such a good movie... "aint no mountian high- aint no valley low- aint no river wide enough baby". hahaA- great song too! i love that song!! its so cool! but this movie is so.. emontional. it makes me cry everytime i watch it. but its such a good movie. *sigh* lolz. OMG julious just got hurt!!!!!!!!!! :'( *tear* (seriously- i just cried..) omg...im so pathetic..heh. oh well. i dont care.."na na na na, na na na na, hey hey hey, goOodbye.." heh i really do love this movie. nd the music is so.. movin. i feel like such a moron..- oh well. heh. im such a loser!!!! lol. cooL!!!!!!!!! hahaA. welp im out..laterrrrrrrr

:: hey hey hey- goodbye ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: excited

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: aint no mountain high

wow- i dunno why- but for some strange reason everythings big on my journal. its like that on like every live journal. creepy..*shudders* lol   :-P   but anyways... HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!! too bad im grounded.. wow. OMG im so excited!! i went to rag shop nd i got a pattern for a giraffe nd elephant paterns!! i cant wait to start makin them! :-D YaY. but anyways...-

omg- i woke up at 10.30 today nd by 11 i was on the brink of losin it cause of my "family". i cant stand them! all day ive been this close to hurtin one of them. like- seriously. ive cried sooo much today. i cant deal w. them anymore. i seriously cant. nd i dunno wat to do. its like- no matter wat i do i cant do anything right. no matter wat i do its not good enough. nd its like theyre purposely tryin to make my life ad difficult as fuckin possible. i dont kno at to do. im so lost..

:: i dont kno wat to do ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: depressed

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: hanson

today was ok.

bio- we had our 4th nd final test of the week. how crazy is that!? four tests in IfiveI days!! i mean..-hello! thats crazy. i already dont like the class. (heh i just dont like tests..especially since i failed two of them   :-\   -lolz)

english- we took a quiz bout the story we read last night. i only got one wrong. so i gotta 90. nothin wrong w. that. im happy w. b's..theyre fine w. me..i dont care. melissa-BURP ON COMMAND!! lmao- that was freakin hilarious! heheh *giggle giggle*   :-P  

spanish- we made valentine cards. it was really fun. i made one for stina, nd stina made two for me nd like seven others just to give to random people. i think she ended up writin names on them tho..- but im not quite sure!   :-P nd i made a card for dane!! ;-D

health- we started this absolutely retarded thing ndwe watched the beginnin of some stupid movie no one payed attention to

WOW!! i was standin outside chattin it up w. amanda nd kat wen all of a sudden someone comes up behind me nd hugs me. i didnt scream- i skrieked! dane came up behind me nd hugged me. nice, huh? lolz. i cant even remember the last time i shrieked like that! it was soooooooo funny! he was my valentine. so i gave him my card that i made in spanish nd a little cheesy/corny valentine i got off te back of a little debbie. ya kno- i had a little bar of chocolate for him- but i ate it at some point durin the day. i couldnt help it! it was just there! sorry dane!! lolz. nd i got a cute little heart shaped box of cholocates. lol. dane ur great. i love u!! :-D   (i dont like dan anymore!!!!!!!!!!!) i came home nd went to the eye doctors. my eyes got a little worse- but barely. so hats a good thing. nd i picked out new glasses. theyre pretty much exactly wat i already have, but i little lighter color.

:: ull recover from a night like this ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: pissed off

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: mxpx

today was better than yesterday was by a long shot. like it was soooooo much better (too bad it still couldve been like 10 xs better..   : \   )

first (bio)- we took a test. but i actually did really good on this one. i ony for got one definiton! so ill get a 90. YaY! then we went over some stuff i didnt pay attention to. wat a shock, huh? i figured out that i have a major short attention span. nd thats not good wen ur bein "lecured" for 80 minutes.. i dunno. i kno i hafta pay attention. nd i try. but it just doesnt happen..   : \  

second(english)- wow. my teacher finally decided to show up today!   : O   she hasnt been here the last two days. so we made fun of the sub we had yesterday (mrs. ali- total weirdo..wOw) but yea then we went over different parts of speach. i dont kno them too well.   : P   oh well- i dont care..watever. i wrote melissa a note. then she wrote me one back!   : D   i felt so special! lol..

thrid(spanish)- i "hate" my teacher...well..- i dont hate him..i just dislike him at the moment. lol. theres this really annoyin kid, kyle, in my class. hes annoyin. he neer shuts up. he thinks hes just the coolest. his voice is high..nd skweeky..nd omg i cant stand him. well lawlor (my teacher) decided to change his seat. nd he sits right in front of me now. he was annoyin wen he was far away. its like a kasillion times worse now. im seriously ready to vcut his throat. nd ive only had to deal w. him for one day. im afraid for tomorrow- im gonna like strangle him or something.

we had health today. yuck. we had a partner quiz thingy today. me nd jeni gota 70 on it.   : )   oh well- i dont care.

i dont feel good. i havent felt good in a couple days. i dunno why. im freezin. i just had chocolate puddin. my head nd stomach hurt. i just dont feel good.

make bold everything you remember on this list...

make bold everything you remember on this list...

make bold everything you remember on this list...

Lamb Chop
Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
Fraggle Rock
G.I. Joe
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The Secret World of Alex Mack
Nightmare Before Christmas
Welcome Freshman
Space Cases
Roundhouse
The Muppet Show
Muppet Babies
Eureka's Castle
Salute Your Shorts
Legends of the Hidden Temple
You Can't Do That On Television
G.U.T.S
What Would You Do?
Double Dare
Rocko's Modern Life
All That
Ren and Stimpy
Clarissa Explains It All
Pete and Pete
Stick Stickley
Goodburger
Angry Beavers
Spongebob
Hey Arnold!
AAH! Real Monsters
Tiny Toons
Animaniacs!
Pinky and the Brain
The Babysitter's Club
Underdog
Kablam!
Gullah Gullah Island
Richard Scarry
Dumbo's Circus
Ocean Girl
Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
Snick Snacks
Dunkaroos
Koala Yummies
Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
Nick Magazine [[i memorized the commercial!!]]
Rockapella
The Goonies
Ernest movies
Radio Flyer
Disney Watchers
Adventures in Wonderland
Homeward Bound
The Adventures of Yellow Dog
Milo and Otis
Neverending Story
Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
The Lion King
Labyrinth
101 Dalmations
The Secret Garden
Pete's Dragon
Hocus Pocus
Secret of Roan Inish
Land Before Time
Dinosaurs
Fern Gully
Secret of NIMH
Gummi Bears
Care Bears
A Little Princess
My Little Pony
Black Beauty
Rainbow Brite
Lady Lovely Locks
Candyland
Sorry!
Trouble
Don't Wake Daddy!
Mousetrap
Jenga
Don't Break the Ice
Hungry Hungry Hippos
Cooties
Tinker Toys
Sky Dancers
Polly Pocket
Slap bracelets
Hypercolor t-shirts
Lite Brite
Neon colored/Dayglo clothing
Scrunchies
Side ponytails
Stirrup pants
Jelly shoes
Saddle shoes
Barbies
Beanie Babies
Tamagotchies
Yo-yos
Pogs
Goosebumps
Magic Attic Club
American Girl
Island of the Blue Dolphin
Saved By The Bell
Full House
Step By Step
TGIF on ABC
Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
Boy Meets World
Clueless
Mork and Mindy
Simpsons
Flipper
Eerie, Indiana
Third Rock From The Sun
Tracey Ullman Show
Ghostwriter
Growing Pains
Family Ties
Titanic
Felix The Cat
Jonathan Taylor Thomas
Home Improvement
Tom and Huck
My Brother and Me
Kenan and Kel
Hanson
Inspector Gadget
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Power Rangers
Hot Wheels
Creepy Crawlers
Easy Bake Oven
flower making kits
Weinerville
Wild and Crazy Kids
playdough McDonald's sets
Animorphs
Rainbow Fish

If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
Bailey School Kids
Wayside School
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
Boxcar Kids
Ramona Quimby
Amber Brown
Roald Dahl
Allegra's Window
3-2-1 Contact

wow^^ wat a trip down memory lane. i miss all those things...   :'(

:: im on the outside ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: sick

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: sr-71

wow i havent updated in  quite a while. my classes are ok. ya like osme nd ya dont. just like last half i guess.

im grounded. for the most retarded reason too! i didnt eat dinner saturday night cause i wasnt hungry. nd my parents flipped out!! it was KRAZEE!!!!!!!! i hate them

ya kno i have nothin to write bout. wow! i found this totally amazin layout for my journal- but i dunno how it works! nd i cant get it on my journal! hello technical difficulties!! hotdamn!! lol. d i was deletin all this shit from my puter nd deleted my amazin layout dor my desktop i just made! nd it was the best one ever!!!!! it sucks ass man..it sucks!! so im gonna make a new one..nd for the time bein its a picture of hanson baby!!! oOo yea hanson rules!! (they have a new cd out!!   : D   im so excited!! i cant wait to get it!!) lolz.- such a loser. i want the afi cd too. holy fuckin god theyre amazin..- i think i found my new favorite band. *! afi !* baby! lol *giggle giggle* i feel like anamda! lol "omg me nd doug could like 500 pieces of spiey chicken wings nd be just fine!" "HI DOUG!!" lmao!- good times..good times..(loser) welp i guess ill leave since i got nothin to bitch bout (that i can write w. out offendin people)

:: lifes a lot to think about sometimes ::

the first day of the second semester. its quite sad. i actually kinda miss shencks class. it was a total blast!!!! : P

first- bio. wow..hibbard is really really weird. i dunno wat to say. he spent the entire period lecurin us nd iddnt even get to finish everything he had to say...? i dunno. hes just weird.

second- english, i dont think mmy teacher likes me (already). sad, huh? welp i signed my name on the wrong side of the sheet of paper nd she was like flippin out nd i didnt kno wat she was talkin bout cause i was confused. it was just not cool.

thrid- spanish. thats gonna be a fun class. we had an interestin time!

wow. my isters boyfriend just like showed up at our house nd shes not even home! so he left. but damn goes he smell good! like..woOow..this kid smells amazin. *yummy* lol just..kidding! dane- i got to level 24 on that game on addictingames.com! hahaA beat that !!!   : P heheh *giggle giggle* welp im out.

:: i love ur lack of self-respect ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: cranky

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: nickleback

welp we have no school today!   : D   very happy bout that. but i was gonna call erin nd see if she wanted to go to the boardwalk, but her lines been busy since like 11!! nd thats just not cool...

wow-i find it very amusin that ashley still feels she needs to comment in my journal nd talk bout nonsense shit. its amazin how she talks bout all this stuff that never happened.

well anways...i figured since i got nothin better to do ill put another poem in here--   Painful Truth- my parents dont understand, they just dont seem to get, that theyre the reason my life is filled w. regret. all the constant torture, the nonstop pain i feel, its all just too real. every wakin moment, of every single day. it all turns out the exact same way. untold truths, nd half-lies. constantly hidden behind my disguise. i go home, nd bleed the pain away, think about every day. go through it all, i torture myself. one last slice, so ends my life.

creepy, huh? lol welp im out...

:: closure has come ::

u waNNa feeL liKe thiS ?: content

waTs the rinGin in my eaRs ?: rancid- roots radicals

one more thing- md nd molly were chattin it up on the but to school last week nd i said that i didnt believe in god or anything like that. the only thing i believe in is that everything happens for a reason, but i dont believe that because of god nd jesus everything happens.. but molly said that i have to believe in somehting. its like, i kno where shes comin from, but at the same time i dont agree w. her. like, i love ya molly, im not tryin to be mean, but-- it is actually possible not to believe in anything. example- molly said well wat about heaven? nd hell? i totally understand where shes comin from, but theres a fine line believe believin in something, nd believin thereis something, ya kno? like, i believe that there is a heaven nd a hell, but i dont believe in heaven nd hell. like, it sounds confusin, but from my point of view its not, caust its wat i think nd its wats goin through my mind. then molly asked me wat i thought happened after i died. but i honestly dont care. ill deal w. that wen the time comes. wen i die ill find out. but right now i dont kno nd i really dont care (again no offence molly!   : D   ) i dunno- i just needed ot get that out.

:: that boy needs therapy ::